Crazy Week!

This past week has been crazy! I feel like emotionally this week has just been a little draining. What is good about that, however, is that I am really learning that you can't totally trust your feelings or your emotions, or even your logic. Sound confusing? Sorry, I suppose it is something I can't, or don't want to totally explain right now. But despite that, I have this enormous feeling of peace right now about everything. I know in my past posts I was talking about fear and uncertainty, and last week I just had this all consuming feeling that it is what it is and it is time to just totally surrender and enjoy the journey. That is how I feel today. I am just enjoying the journey and learning all over how to trust and depend and be less independent. To share parts of me and emotions that I don't share with a lot of people and to trust that my thoughts will be secure in the hands and heart of another. I have also learned that it isn't all about me. In fact, right now I want to focus my attention on how I can be the person I need to be for others instead of the opposite. All of these emotions and surrendering and sharing and late nights have gotten me little sleep, but I can't tell you the burden that seems to have lifted from me.

Besides all of that, here are some highlights of the week. We had a tennis match up in Michigan on Tuesday. It was probably the most fun match ever. Three hour drive there, eating tons of food, winning the match, laughing, three hour drive back, stopping at Subway, and laughing some more was exactly how a tennis match should be. For all of you who have asked about my back, Tuesday was the first time in almost a year where I felt back to my old self. I played like I used to play, thanks to new pain killers and a back brace. I couldn't have been more thrilled.

Friday night I was able to spend some time with Beth, Brittany, and Kellyn just talking and watching a movie. Okay, okay, I didn't actually watch the movie because Brittany and I were stalking people on Facebook (you know you do it too), but nonetheless, it was a good time.

Saturday night was a lot of fun as well. Todd came over and we did homework for like an hour and then, after seeing something for match.com, decided we should create our own profiles. I know this sounds super lame/stupid, but A) we are in Huntington, IN where there isn't a whole lot happening and B) it is actually really fun and everyone should try it. We wanted to see if we would get paired up together, haha. It took us about 2 hours to complete the profiles, and let me just tell you that match.com has a funny way of turning you into the most shallow human being on the face of the earth. For example, there is a question that asks what you look for physically in a potential mate. Of course, we put "athletic and toned." Well, when both of our matches came up, we did not get athletic and toned people. I said, in a very serious manner, "Why am I getting all of these fatties? I said athletic and toned." Hah. That one kept us laughing for a while.

My roommate, Susanne, came back for a bit and helped us finish the profiles off, and the three of us got to laughing pretty hard together. Then, Mark and Chelsey came over. I think this is the point where I make a confession to all of you. As embarrassing as this may be, you should know that sometimes when Chelsey and I get to laughing really hard, problems happen. You can fill in the blank there. Poor Mark has just been the unfortunate soul who has been witness to this, so the four of us sat there laughing about that, and then Chelsey and I were at it again.

The rest of the night we watched Step Up, and then decided to try to learn some of the dance moves. I for some reason, could not get this one move down at all; I am hoping it is because it was 2:30 in the morning and I was really tired and ate too much candy corn. Either way, the night was fun and full of laughs.

Yesterday, Beth and I went to church and then did homework the rest of the day. Today, I feel slightly ADHD and that I can't focus on one thing at a time. I have a home match at 4, and I think I may need to try to sleep for a bit before that.

Before I go, however, I want to leave you with some funny quotes that were said in my life this week. I really like keeping tabs on these things that really make you laugh, and in fact, my roommates and I keep a quote board in our apartment for those really good lines. You probably won't enjoy them as much if you don't know these people or the situations we were in, but if you do, then laugh with me for a while! Disclaimer: Some may not be completely appropriate, but we can't always filter what goes in our brain and out our mouth all the time.

-"If I had to choose one professor to have sex with, it would definitely be him." _Beth :)

-"OKAY! Why do we keep going off the road?" _Kristen

"I think it's because coach is eating. HE'S EATING!!!" _Gonzo

-"Erica, you just need to relax....Alright; can you just not talk for 2 minutes? Just close your eyes and listen to the music and do not talk." _Todd

-"He's just not weird enough for her." _Brittany

-"A girl's got needs!" _Susanne

-"What?" _Gonzo

"Oh...nothing. We love ya Gonzo." _Me

"Awww. I love you guys too." _Gonzo

-"Erica, I'm going to keeeel you." _Alexandra