It has been such a long time since I have updated. Okay, probably not a super long time, but so much has happened between when I last posted until now, so it seems like it has been a while. Here is an updated list of the current events in my life:

-I have been having just a wonderful time with friends. From going to the Tin Caps game, to eating pizza, to driving around creeping, life with all of the wonderful girls in my life has been wonderful.
-Tennis is here again.
-I started my Junior Block Practicum 2 weeks ago. I am in a great first grade class in Ft. Wayne where I have been challenged in extreme ways concerning my abilities to teach. My co-op teacher is intense, and probably one of the best teachers I have met, so I feel intimidated and slightly nervous...something I haven't really experienced in the classroom yet. The experience is teaching me a lot!
-Afternoon classes = busy and I am tired.
-I have had some great conversations that have challenged me and pushed me and lots of good laughs and some wonderfully awkward moments.

It seems like life is just flying by right now and I am not totally sure how to make it stop. I don't know where to begin with my homework load, and if I am being totally honest here, my emotions have been getting the best of me lately. I have always known this about myself, but it has become more evident in these last two weeks: it is very hard for me to give up control of my life. I have been lacking in the area of faith lately and doubting silly things and spending way too much time worrying, even after I have given it up to God. For this reason, I am going to make a small list of goals for things that I need to work on this week:
-Begin each day with prayer (yes...even before I leave for school at 7 a.m. - it will be a challenge)
-Try to stop over thinking things haha. So easy to say, but so hard to do.
-Clean my car out.
-Try my best at tennis, even when I am tired and have other things on my mind.

Well after looking at that list I think it definitely calls for this quote, and my motto for each day this week: "Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So...get on your way." -Dr. Seuss :)

Blessed.

"Sometimes I ask the question, 'My Lord is this your will?' It's then I hear you answer me, 'My precious child...be still.'
Sometimes I feel frustrated, cause I think I know what's best. It's then I hear you say to me, 'My busy child...just rest.'
Sometimes I feel so lonely, and I think I'd like a mate. your still small voice gets oh so clear and says, 'My child...please wait.'
'I know the plans I have for you, the wondrous things you'll see; If you can just be patient child, and put your trust in me.
I've plans to draw you closer. I've plans to help you grow. There's so much I know you cannot see, and much you do not know.
But know this child...I love you! You are precious unto me. Before I formed you in the womb, I planned your destiny.
I've something very special I hope for you to learn. The gifts I wish to give to you are gifts you cannot earn. They cam without a pirce tag, but not without a cost; At Calvary, I gave my son, so you would not be lost. Rest child, and do not weary of doing what is good. I promise I'll come back for you, just like I said I would. Your name is written on my palm, I never could forget, therefore do not be discouraged when my answer is...Not Yet."

I found this poem last year on accident and I love it! I often read it to remind myself that I am not in control and that God really does know what is best. I think that sometimes people my age sit and worry about doing God's will and making sure that they are in it. This poem reminds me that I am in God's will if I stay in communication with Him.

I feel like this past week has been very strange. I was in Florida over Easter, and it was amazing! I flew into Ft. Wayne Tuesday night at 10, and as soon as I got back to Huntington I was hit hard with homework and the realization of the real world. As most of you know, lately I have been choosing the social life over the academic life which has forced me into long nights of staying up until 4 a.m. finishing homework. You would all be proud to know that tonight, I have chosen homework over friends haha. Let's see if I can get anything done...

Besides all of that, I have been totally blown away by life recently...in the best of ways. Lindsay and I seriously spent a good ten minutes just laughing about the way our lives our turning out. Never in a million years would I think I would be in the positions or experience what I have. It only shows me that you never ever know what God is going to do in your life, and it simply amazes me how when you think something is impossible, God goes and shows you that it is not impossible for Him. Life truly is beautiful, and friends are truly beautiful and I feel so blessed to be where I am right now.